Insta Diaries #6

“Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.”- James‬ ‭5:16‬.

Real talk friends, when I say I’m fine - there’s like a 99% I’m not fine at all, more like the complete opposite. And for a really long time I’ve been essentially lying and saying I’m okay when I’m not. I’ve crafted a very safe image of myself that most people get to see and interact with and for the most part she’s mostly me. But not fully. 

I’ve spent a long time believing lies about myself, God, and other people. And now I’m fighting back. I’m calling them out and praying against them. But battling is hard. I get exhausted. It’s like 24/7 swatting flies away and sometimes it feels like they’re overwhelming me and I’ll never win.

That’s where God and friends come in and they swat them away for me - when I’m too weak to do it alone. But people can’t help me - if I don’t confess it. They can’t help me if they don’t know. 

Maybe you feel that too? Find people you can trust - even when it doesn’t feel that way - and let them in. Let them love and encourage you. Let them show you God’s tender loving care. Let God in. Don’t fear the silence. Wait on Him - without music. Pray in the Spirit - let Him minister to your brokenness. It really does help. You’re also encouraged to cry it out. :).

All that to say - I’m with you. And I need people. I need God. Because I’m broken. And life hurts and the lies can be really really loud some days. And battling is wearisome. “But take heart, He has overcome the world.”(John 16:33). And remember that the prayer is powerful AND effective. :)